the roller coaster


I've never been one for roller coasters. I didn't grow up with them and nearly had a panic attack trying to force myself to ride the Batman at Six Flags as an adult. This was a huge disappointment for my husband - who literally loves to jump out of planes for fun. So it should come as no surprise that I'm not a fan of the coaster called Covid-19. I'm not sure that the most adventurous of us are thrilled with this ride either.


But I don't know any other way to describe what it feels like right now - with something that most of us have never experienced - a world wide pandemic. Some days I'm optimistic and then others I'm having to work really hard to not allow myself be overcome with fear. The unknown is scary and those of us that struggle with control (raising my hand here) just want to feel like we are gaining some kind of ground (which we know in reality is just an illusion -but man, I like that illusion. I've grown pretty comfortable with it).


I just want to say, it's okay to feel like you are on a roller coaster. I actually think that it is normal - and like any other day - we will have good days and we will have bad. Some days you and I - we won't have the energy to ponder, think or even determine how to not let the fear or anxiety take control. You may be coping hour by hour. Some days your outlook will feel strong and controlled.


And for me, on the bad days - the goal is to just keep from having that panic attack, breathe, rest, meditate, take a walk, pray, or even binge watch something as ridiculous as Tiger King on Netflix (ya'll, seriously, I can't stop watching). Give yourself a break. Remember every day is new. And you might just need to turn off the news...


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